Recently, I found myself sitting on a plane. Alone in a crowd, for the first time in my life. My suitcase was packed. My heart was pounding as my mind went through a checklist to make sure all was ready. I was traveling alone, the raw power of my own individuality causing some sort of delightful shock within myself. I was empowered, ready to work towards something I'd wanted to pursue for so very long. I was going to a writing camp in Portland, Oregon.
As it turns out, the camp was extraordinary. It was one of the best experiences I've ever had. I met so many people, saw so many sights, had so many adventures. It's impossible to explain in one post, and perhaps I'll have more telling about the specifics of the trip.
Let's focus on the writing though, since this is the Writing blog. I learned a lot about it there, obviously. Although I didn't get to do nearly as much creative writing as I would have liked, it was still such a learning experience. I figured out what I did and didn't like in writing. I learned I write better in the earliest moments of the day. I created pieces of literature that make me smile and cry all at once. I reflected on stuff I wouldn't have even considered to reflect upon. For the first time in a while, I felt like I was sure writing was part of my path in life. I don't know how, or why, but I was positive that I was meant to write.
So where do I go from here? A week has passed, a mere seven days, and I feel like I'm slipping on that sure footing. I'm beginning to think that where I am, what I call home, may not be home anymore. So long have I worried that I will learn to love this strange, uneventful life that my parents have found and I have been born into. I do not think I will be happy with this anymore. I want my own adventures, my own stories. I want to see the world, the good and the awe striking. Now, there is only the escape and the consequences that will follow. I wonder where this excitement will lead me. I wonder if, in six months, I'll be back on this computer with nothing to say as usual. I